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BEFORE YOU FUCKING POST ANYTHING Beaware of the reasons why i wanna kill myself/ run away: every fucking person i know treats me like shit even my "freinds". Its constently every fucking day at home i get told i dont care about anyone, even though most of the times im bending over backwards fighting lions with a spoon for my family. all it is at my house is parents fighting/ sister's treating me like shit. No that we have cleared that up i need ideas/plans

do neather  i have feltg the same way when i was about your age i have a mental  disorder  and have been in a youth metal hospital twice for depresion/anger/and brakedowns  it was a very difficulte time in my life  your best option is to see a school councler you can just talk to them  (legaly they cant tell any one what you tell them) or they  can refer you to a psycologist or family councler  quite often they have ones the school will pay for for 2 or 3 sessions  do not be afraid to ask for help from someone.  trust me it will help  but suicide and running away are not the anwsers if anything just find time to be away from people for a few hours  to think  and decompress also dont be afraid to cry it will help too it relses chemicals in your brain that will make you feel better

I felt the same when I was your age. From 11 to 17 I was thinking about dying almost everyday. I come from a 1000 people town with a small school, I couldn't run away from my school. I always had issues with my father because he's protective and that we are both hard-headed. My parents always argue with everything. I was the mean big sister, tho :P. But it was because I grew up so fast and spending time with my brother was getting harder to me because they were still children or pre-teen and I wanted to build an "adult" identity. I wanted them to be perfect so I was a little too hard on them. I realize it now.

School was hell. I got buried every single day by almost the whole school. There's nothing they didn't do. What was harder was to spend all my free times alone, without any good friends. And the friends I had at this period were not really good friends. They hurted me a lot (because they were immature, because they wanted to be popular, because they wanted drugs...). Well, to be honest, being a teenager sucks. The best way to survive it is to find what's special about you and try to become better. No matter what's happening around or what other people says. When I was a teenager, I was writing a lot of stories (not always appropriate for people of my age but still...). Living in my imaginary world and write helped me so much with my self-confidence and to forget the hell at school. I also always was listening to music. Find something that you are really good with and improve it. Prove to the world that you are special (because we know you are).

And one day, bad days will be behind you. I'm so happy I didn't kill myself because now I live some of the happiest days of my life. My bad teenagers years made me so much stronger. And I learn a lot of things that people of my age still don't know.

If friends act bad with you, tell them you don't like it. If they continue, leave them. You'll find better friends that are more similar than you. Also, you have to learn that you can't worry about things you don't control. It's not easy to see parents fighting but, unfortunatly, there's nothing to do except, maybe, tell them the way you feel when they are fighting when everyone is calm. Another pro-tip : usually, people are open to understand when they are calm. It's the best time to tell them you feel bad about them fighting or acting bad with you. But you can't really do a thing about your parents. They will solve their problems on their own. I know it's hard for you but you can't really do a thing to help it so don't feel guilty. Put some headphones and listen to loud rock/metal/any type of songs you want.

I'm sure you'll be okay soon. It's a bad phase. Growing up is really hard and being a teenager sucks. One day, you'll become stronger and laugh about it. Don't worry.

And I don't want you to kill yourself. I need someone to trade pokemons with when Black and White will be out

also, i agree with killernat's post.

Totally right. My primary school period felt shallow, too. I had to get counseling, but for.... different reasons. You'll definitely find better, more concrete relationships later on in life. The people that claimed to be my  friends never called, never asked about me, and would put up a facade of friendship whenever I was around, but it changes, I guarantee it. You have to realize that you're probably more mature than they are, and theyre just idiots for acting the way they do. they're too dumb to know what real values and friendship are, but you'll have to be a bit patient to find people that will stick with you when the "sh** hits the fan".my coach in highschool was a marine, and after I'd finish my workout, which was always longer than everyone elses, he'd say that it's hard to find people who'll stand by you when you're getting shot at, but when you do find someone like that, you gotta return the favor and stand right there with em.

Life is a precious commodity. Remember, from your perspective, the world ends with you.

So... is it just me or does it seem that everyone here on the site seems to have had a really shitty teenage/young life?

I spent a very large portion of my life alone, talking to people who pretended to be my friend, but the moment I wasn't around, it was as if i was the only outcast in the entire world, like my entire existence wasn't recognized. I went through several suicide attempts, thousands of breakdowns, and a whole lot of scars that i would rather not go into details with. All i can really suggest is that, whatever you do, spend some time alone, preferrably a few hours a day, and truly think about what suicide entails. Think about it from every persons perspective, everyone that you know, or even know of, and what it would mean that you are suddenly gone. There are times you may think nobody cares, but there are people that do not know you even slightly, miles away from you, that would hear of your suicide on the news, and would instantly be depressed by your actions WISHING with every fiber of their being that they could have been there to stop you and to show you that people do care, you just need to find the right ones. Think about things from other peoples perspectives, pretend you are them and try to imagine what it would be like growing up as they did, and what would happen if suddenly "your person" died. Imagine you are your father, and suddenly your son kills himself without any explanation that you could conceive, suddenly you find yourself at a major loss for emotions and everything goes blank. I have spent endless hours, even days at a time thinking about these things and what it truly means to end your life and what that brings. Once you are dead, your stress doesn't magically go away, your anger, hatred, disgust, whatever emotions your holding dont just dissappear. They are always there, nothing changes with suicide. The only difference is that existence simply doesnt happen. There is nothing at all anymore, and you simply aren't.

Eventually, if you tough it out and keep yourself together, through all of the breakdowns, crying, shut-downs, and everything, things always get better, even if only slowly at first. After a while for me, after quite a few attempts at suicide, i found someone who made me happy, could make me forget about everything that made me suicidal, make it as if it had never been there in the first place. The only problem with that person was eventually, things became worse, and i had become much closer than ever to ending everything, but someone, someone i hardly even knew, came in those last few seconds and changed everything for me again. Now im happier than i have ever been, and i wouldn't change anything.

I'm not trying to tell my life story or anything, but simply giving my insights towards the whole suicide motion. As close as i've gotten in the past, I realize now that there is nothing that could ever exist, that could truly justify suicide. As for running away, thats a terrible idea. Every parent is different, but some do not react in the ways that we expect them to. Some may simply disown us if we run away, ruining our lives entirely and causing a near 100% chance that we barely live from day to day as a homeless person, struggling for food and shelter, with no way of attempting to support ourselves. On the other hand, the parents may realize what they are doing and begin to change their actions, but this is rarely what happens.

So, for my actualy suggestion about the entire matter (if anyone has even read all of this, i doubt its entirely readable being that at this point in time, I have been awake for almost 48 consecutive hours under constant stress and continuous work) is to neither commit suicide or run away, simply find better solutions to deal with your issues that cause you to have the suicidal thoughts. As much as it may suck now, you may just need to keep it inside and release it slowly (as I have done, and i dont strongly reccommend it) until you can force yourself into a home of your own that keeps you out of stress and suicidal thoughts.

Also, I can say beyond a shadow of a doubt that this was my longest post on any thread ever in my entire life on teh internets

 That's an awesome post, TheEverling. I'm glad everything is better for you now :).

You're all awesome, guys

TheEverling at January 30, 2011 at 12:29 AM

Also, I can say beyond a shadow of a doubt that this was my longest post on any thread ever in my entire life on teh internets

I read every post**, regardless of content or length. Just throwing it out there, that I care what everyone thinks! Further reinforcing that there could be someone out there who cares more so than you might think they do.

**Exceptions are the IRL porn thread, and I only went back to the boob gif thread once after my first few posts, to recommend an image host to beefgir.

I think somebody needs a hugggggggggggg :3

Its funny how people on an internet forum can make me feel better about myself more then anyone ever has in a long time, thanks guys

Awesome!!

 And the Internet delievered help once again :D.

But seriously, anytime you feel bad and wanna talk about it, just bug me on the internet. I'm not always on steam but I can give you my msn so you can contact me (almost) 24/7 lol.

ALostEt3rnity at January 30, 2011 at 2:48 PM

TheEverling at January 30, 2011 at 12:29 AM

Also, I can say beyond a shadow of a doubt that this was my longest post on any thread ever in my entire life on teh internets

I read every post**, regardless of content or length. Just throwing it out there, that I care what everyone thinks! Further reinforcing that there could be someone out there who cares more so than you might think they do.

**Exceptions are the IRL porn thread, and I only went back to the boob gif thread once after my first few posts, to recommend an image host to beefgir.

i do the same  just because i dont post dosent mean i havent read it just look at my last logon and you can see if i read it or not

What's upsetting you,  B?

i was just making an ass out of myself is all.

killernat was right.

im a horible person.

ididn t say you were a horibal person  (also no one knows the context because you deleted the posts) i just said you werent helping

I think he's just posting a picture, LostEternity.

@ Original topic:

Also, even though I'm pretty sure you got over the original topic, I didn't have an extemely trying time as a teenager, but it was still rough, but that's just how it is.  Welcome to life and how it works. 

When you run away, depending on where you live, it can ruin any future career choices you may have, not to mention you may not have to choose between killing yourself or not since you may get killed.  So many runwaways get murdered and so much worse every year, usually dying with no name and rarely found. 

And when people commit suicide (or, more correctly, die), there is nothing.  You are no more, and everything you are and ever will be ends, and that's how it is.  Some people refer to suicide as a release from all of that, but tell me what relief you will feel when all ends, please.  (The Everling put it much more eloquently, but it seems he had more experience with that train of thought.)

And I know it sounds rough and mean, but that's how it is.  And this same urge is going to come back to you over and over again until you grow up or, more importantly, those around you grow up.  Nothing is more important than realizing what, exactly, the repercussions are when you act a certain way or say something, just like all these people giving you shit.  "They just hatin'," my friend always says.  But so few people think about others, let alone what their actions and words do to others.

killernat at January 31, 2011 at 2:03 PM

ididn t say you were a horibal person  (also no one knows the context because you deleted the posts) i just said you werent helping

I see. However, there are very few people who are intrinsically horrible. I'm guessing you posted something bad, or something.... but by deleting it, you've rectified your action. Correct me if I'm wrong, but "regret" can be a positive trait if used correctly, and doesn't make you  a bad person because you can recognize when something's inappropriate.

So in effect, you're not a bad guy. In fact, you're pretty good in my book.

Somebody should rename this thread "The B'awwww Thread" or something of that reminiscence...

At any rate, I hope that the this thread gave you that confidence boost we hoped for, Youngin! It seems like everybody here is a pretty understanding guy (Or female in supercaro's case...).

You know, beefgir, I saw your reaction last night but I couldn't technically answer it. That was the kind of reaction I don't really like in men (and women). But, you're not horrible. You're not horrible because, when you read our reaction, you felt guilty and realized you were wrong. That proves that you have a heart too and that you could feel every ones feeling. So you're far from being horrible.